In case you didn't know this about me, I am a very indecisive person.
Like really indecisive.
But I also really don't like having things be up in the air, and not knowing what is going to happen in my life.
So about a month and a half after I got here I was already anxious about making a decision on whether I would stay past the year that I had agreed to.
Like super anxious.
I went back a forth for a while and then had decided for sure I wasn't going to stay.
That I would go back to Utah and finally go to school for what I should have since I started too many years ago.
I went home at Christmas and told everyone I would see them in less then a year. That I would be back in the US in mere months.
And then I came back after Christmas and I did a lot better then I thought. No tears or anything. Which surprised me a whole bunch.
So then I got to thinking about staying again. Because honestly, I would miss a lot of things:
-William and Beatrice's laughs
-the way when I go to pick William up from school, when he sees me, he stops doing what he's doing and starts running to me, yelling "Miss Jenae!"
-how excited Beatrice and I both get when she learns something new
-William looking up and slowly smiling
-teaching Beatrice and William, it's one of my favorite things and I don't know why/how it took my so long to realize that teaching preschool is my calling in life!
-the Strauss family.. who have become my Swedish American family (I finally have the younger brothers I always wanted :) )
-the beautiful scenery
-being able to end sentences with "...in Sweden"
I could name lots more, but I won't bore you.
I'll just tell you that I changed my mind.. I'm staying in Sweden, until at least August 2016. I've got a while before I'll start getting anxious about the year after that :)
Come visit me! You have 18 months!
